Have you ever stopped and looked around at your life and found yourself wondering, "Wait, how did I get here?". I have recently, and I have to say it's a little unsettling. It's hard to see while amidst everyday living how a little turning off the course can lead you somewhere that you never thought possible and that you never wanted to be. It happens, I believe, to all of us at some point or another and the longer that we wait to change our course, the harder it becomes to do so. I have been putting off writing lately because I have felt that my life has stayed stagnant and that there really wasn't anything consequential to add to this blog world. I have thought to myself, " I have school and work and they mostly stay the same so what is there really to say?"- in thinking that I limited the fact that anything that we feel and say, if it means something to us, is of value.
I have always been a private person that at times finds it difficult to share with others. I guard myself from rejection before I even give a person a chance to know me for me. I cannot tell you the times that I have held back and walked away from a person or situation wishing that I would have said what I really wanted to. It's interesting how we are all here on the earth with different personality traits that seem to have come with us from where we were before, because I can remember this particular trait about me from some of my earliest memories. I don't necessarily believe that this is always bad and I really don't even know why I am writing this or where this is suppose to go, other than, I guess this is me just writing an update about what I have been thinking about.
Andy Warhol once said, "They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself". This past little while I have come to believe that wholeheartedly - they trick then becomes - do we want to? Do we know how?